Psychobabble.

Tell you ’bout a dream that I have every night
Tell you ’bout a dream that I have every night
It ain’t in Kodachrome and it isn’t black and white
Take me for a fool if you feel that’s right
Well I’m never on my own but there’s nobody in sight
I don’t know why I’m scared of the lightning

Trying to reach me
I can’t turn to the left or the right
I’m too scared to run and I’m too weak to fight
But I don’t care it’s all psychobabble rap to me

Tell you ’bout a dream that I have every night
It’s in Dolby stereo but I never hear it right
Take me for a fool well that’s alright
Well I see the way to go but there isn’t any light
I don’t know why I’m scared of the lightning

Trying to reach me
Help me to find what I don’t wanna know
You’re taking me there but I don’t wanna go
I don’t care it’s all psychobabble rap to me

Psychobabble all psychobabble
Psychobabble all psychobabble
I don’t care it’s all psychobabble rap to me

You’re readin’ my mind you won’t look in my eyes
You say I do things that I don’t realise
But I don’t care it’s all psychobabble rap to me

Psychobabble all psychobabble
Psychobabble all psychobabble

You’re lighting a scene that’s faded to black
I threw it away cause I don’t want it back
But I don’t care it’s all psychobabble rap

I’m guessing that most of us must have sometime or the other let our minds wander and retrospect about all the sad things that happened in the past. For me it happens most of the time, I can’t figure out why.

Not that there have only been sad incidents in my life, but its probably because one can’t help but try and figure out why some of the really good things have just vanished.

It happens either gradually or sometimes just suddenly and its when such things happen erratically that you’re most affected. You just can’t seem to put your head together and come up with a single viable logical explanation.

People say life is full of disappointments and you’ve to live with them, but its human tendency to look for answers as to why one had to experience them and if there was anything that could’ve been done to avoid them or not let them happen again. Then again, the saying goes ‘Everything happens for a reason’, but if there is a reason why does one indulge in a never ending quest to discover one ?

No matter how hard you try or how indifferent you get as time passes, you still turn back and wonder – What if ? Would it have been different ? What if you’d have kept in touch with that good friend ? What if you were in a position to change the circumstances but were never aware of it ? what if your decision to sabotage something was the worst decision you had ever made ?

Sometimes when the good gets ugly with other people or just life in general, you can’t help but wonder if everything would get back to being normal, or if you’d be able to reminisce of the wonderful and happy moments and let go of the horrible ones.

Time is the healer they say, you give yourself a little time thinking it’s gonna be fine but one question always haunts you – would it really still be the same ? That is when the disappointment kicks in again and you wish you could turn back time. And as soon as you’re done thinking about it, you have this strong feeling of helplessness and you realize that its too late and beyond your control. You feel the apathy that good fortune has towards you and everything’s somber.

Back to square one.

Haha I found this one really funny . That probably is the way of life for quite a few guys, but this guy has the guts to shout it out loud, lol .

Yeh India hai bidu ! This is India ( Ahmednagar , Maharashtra to be precise )

It is when you stop going along with the crowd

and start realizing that there are many things about yourself

that you didn’t know and may not like.

You wonder where you will be in a year or two,

but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,

maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to

aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met.

And the people you have lost touch with

are some of the most important ones.

What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too,

and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere.

But that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job… and it is not even close

to what you thought you would be doing.

Or maybe you are looking for a job…

and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger.

You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual.

Because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life,

and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy.

And you try and cling on to the past with dear life,

but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away.

And there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get heart broken and wonder

how someone you loved could do such damage to you.

Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone

decent enough that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too

and cannot figure out why you’re doing this.

Because, deep inside, you know that you aren’t a bad person.

You want to settle down for good

because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority.

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack.

And for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone

which otherwise you had never thought of until now.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over,

and talk with your friends about the same topics

because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future.

And making a life for yourself…

And while winning the race would be great,

right now you’d just like to be a contender.

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times,

trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Send this to your twenty-something friends…

maybe it will help someone feel like they aren’t alone in their state of confusion…

Welcome to the Quarter-life Crisis.

I’ll probably be back with updates soon – probably something about what happened today, since its currently on my mind … “Sri Lankan Team attacked in Lahore”

I seriously think that some major steps have to be taken now. Reminds me of the news in which Javed Miandad had made this really hilarious statement – ‘The cricket tournaments in Pakistan should continue as per schedule, otherwise the terrorists would think they’ve won the battle and achieved what they wanted’

HAHA ! who in the sane world would actually even remotely think of a tournament in Pakistan after what happened today !

As they say , Ignorance is Bliss . I’ll try to be ignorant too , until my mind doesnt let me be.

p.s. Pink Floyd is trippin !

see you around . . .